I’m sad and I feel vulnerable.
I got two jobs. I am going to reject a job. My parents were not entirely happy with my decision. First, it was that I didn’t go for the cushy clerk government job. Then, it was all about the money. Low paying, contract, with no benefits.
I was happy. I thought it was a good opportunity to gain experiences in a variety of things, to help make big changes in a small organizations. To make it better. I thought it was a place I could go to do things I love.
No. They spent the entire dinner talking about the pay, the employment insurance, how I need to think more about the pension after I retire. Money.
I need to be dependent on myself, but they have instilled concern in me for my retirement. I feel insecure, regretful, and sad. They hit me where I was most vulnerable and twisted a knife in me.
I recognize I have a choice in feeling this way. They can say what they can say, but I can accept or reject it. I need to learn to believe in myself.
I feel so down.