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Archive for the month “February, 2017”

My new list of things I look for.

  • Willing to be emotionally vulnerability
  • Empathetic
  • Willing to be themselves / genuine
  • Self acceptance; acknowledging both strengths and weaknesses
  • Open minded
  • Willingness to try new things
  • Love nature
  • Chemistry / connection
  • Profound, thoughtful thinkers
  • “I don’t need affection in that I’m fine being alone and don’t go stircrazy without it, but inside a relationship I really enjoy frequent physical affection. I like touch and cuddling, and I love getting spontaneous hugs, rubs, kisses, an arm around me. Not constantly, and I don’t want to be attached at the hip [or forced affection], but small gestures make me really happy.”

Recipes I’ve tried

Best Big, Fat, Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookie

Chocolate-y chocolate chip cookie

The definition of a Mind/Thought Dump.

I identify as being conscientious.

I now live out of a suitcase, job-hopping every couple months. Exploring’s fun and all, but forming new connections from scratch, constantly moving, and the stress of not knowing if I will have a job in a couple months, on TOP of dealing with the infuriating ___ is burning me out really bad. The point when I make good friends, is the point I leave again.

Interview questions:

-How would you describe the culture here at (job company)?
-How did this position come to be open?
-What does success look like for this position?
-What is the biggest achievement this department has made?
-What is the biggest challenge facing this department right now?
– Ask them for a brief summary of their time with the company. Favorite aspects, challenges, overall experience of working there.

What made you who you are today?  The ideals you believe in, the way you act or project yourself?

Today is the day I have battled months for. ____ paid me in full for work from March & April. It’s over.

Cool words to use in essays:


How I aim to be like every single day: A genuine person is someone who’s mindset is uneasily affected by those around them. Someone who is not only truthful to their peers but truthful to themselves. They are very self aware and do not feel the need to impress or change their character to suit the people who surround them.

To the guy I feel uncomfortable with, who I need to have a heart-to-heart to about how I feel: Just want to put things into perspective for the both of us, from my point of view. I hope I didn’t make you think too much after the hug, I like you but I’m not willing to do any more than that. Don’t attach to me, at all. I’m not willing to get emotionally involved right now. It’d be better for you to focus on your career. Just.. don’t halt your life for me. Regardless of what either of us felt, it was 2 dates. I like you so far, but I can’t commit to you. I’m not trying to put you to a test or anything, I just want to reinforce that I am not willing to budge from making this any more than casual right now. I have no intention of rushing a relationship. No investment or attachment, ok?

I’m tired. I’m tired to the bone. I’m always ‘on’ because I have way too much going on. Last semester, I was working two jobs, taking 3 courses, running a club, fighting for my pay, and volunteering in any remaining free time I could squeeze out. In my transition days, I spent having my wisdom teeth taken and driving. This semester, I’m working, biking, bad___, drag___ing, and still fighting for my pay from 4 months ago. I feel like I have zero down time although I have so much down time. I feel like I can’t breathe. I feel like I’m doing my maximum and always having to be ‘on’ to make sure I am doing everything accurately and efficiently to get everything done and done well. I feel like I’m just a couple inches away from going over the hump of the amount of work that would cause me to break down into tears simply out of lack of rest and feeling overwhelmed.

I really do love my nomadic lifestyle and I’m really grateful for all the experiences I have been afforded in my defiance against complacency and through my privilege of coming from a middle-class family.  But a part of me wishes I didn’t choose to job hop so much despite how exciting it is – I incur big costs for the way I live.  My life has no rhyme or rhythm nor steady pay or stability.   It feels like I have friends everywhere and nowhere and I feel incredibly exhausted.  Maybe I’m just burnt out.

Instructional Design advice from online:
You need a portfolio. Go create an account on elearning heroes, download a trial version of Storyline. Inhale Tom Kuhlman’s blog posts. If you are even vaguely competent with Creative Cloud apps you will be producing passable assets in a few weeks.
Rinse and repeat with Adobe Captivate. Most enterprise / contract shops are going to want to see you can work in Storyline or Captivate. Lectora is probably a respectable 3rd. But again – you want to be able to apply and say – here’s some online learning assets I built. This stuff isn’t rocket science.
Memorize Kirkpatrick’s 4 levels of evaluation. Not because it will actually help you in your day to day work, but because it is a bullshit interview question you’ll be asked.
Become familiar with the basics of Learning Management Systems, and SCORM and TinCan packaging. This is the delivery framework by which companies track who has taken online courses. You can read up free stuff online, or there’s a decent Lynda.com course too.
If you aren’t having luck landing full time work after your portfolio is out there, there are dozens of contracting firms that hire people for staff augmentation roles to help large companies get projects done their full time people don’t have time for. Get a placement, kick ass and you’ll be offered a job many times (i’ve hired several people this way).

Let your graphic design skills shine. Build elegant, attractive, functional pieces. There are countless corporate training types who try to make the switch to ID roles, but I have learned the hard way, I can’t teach people graphic design, or how to write. You just have to know what fonts work and why, and how certain layouts emphasize certain things, etc. And for the love of god, the difference between “your” and “you’re.”
I am probably a bit of a cynic, but I am dog tired of having to cover for stuffy adult learning professionals who can’t actually USE the tools of the trade. I’ll take a graphic designer with technical chops and an eye for quality over a phd in Adult Education any day. The former will actually accomplish things, the latter will talk endlessly about what we should do.

Sometimes, I wish I had asked that one day when we were alone. Or not.

“____, I don’t mind whatever you say.  Please be honest.  I just want to know so that I am on the same page as you.  How do you feel about me?”



My kind of people and talks: Deep conversations that touch the soul

Talks about..

.. relationships and how every relationship requires work and will have some element of incompatibility.

..  the conscious decision to be happy and positive while acknowledging the sadness that exists, without dwelling on it.

.. family and how parents can have difficulty hearing what it is their children are saying and finding it hard to let the kids go and make mistakes.

.. hobbies and how hobbies do not necessarily have to be jobs

.. how individuals can exude such positive and negative energies that impact other people

.. using your experiences to your advantage by evaluating what you like and dislike, and using it as a learning experience for how you want to act.

These were such wonderful talks.  I have a very thoughtful and kind landlady.

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