Just several things to take off my mind.
My parents – my father thinks in big pictures, my mother thinks very narrowly in a small picture. As a result, my mother is a worry-er and gets caught up in her daily life like there’s no tomorrow and extrapolates this onto my life, wanting to control for every possible minuscule issue and as a result a very controlling person unable to see things from other people’s POV. Meanwhile my mother cares little about others feelings and thinks there’s more to life than that and proudly plows through and mangling any relationships with any person. So do they see and talk eye to eye? Hell no. They were never meant to be together. I don’t appreciate either antic and am determined to lead a life better than both of them.
April 15 – Awkward times when your drunk ex- O-Chem TA who doesn’t recognize you, chats you up, buys the lounge pizza, and leaves you his half-drunken beer.. and then you see him at the bus stop again later that night.
April 19 – Last time it was being paid after 2 months of work. Now, I haven’t been paid for 3 months of work yet both my original and extension contracts with the department have ended. Only the government could get away with such incompetence. Maddening.
April 19 – I really do love my nomadic lifestyle and I’m really grateful for all the experiences I have been afforded in my defiance against complacency and through my privilege of coming from a middle-class family. But a part of me wishes I didn’t choose to job hop so much despite how exciting it is – I incur big costs for the way I live. My life has no rhyme or rhythm nor steady pay or stability. It feels like I have friends everywhere and nowhere and frankly, I am exhausted. Maybe I’m just burnt out.
Having gotten that out of my system, I will miss all the amazing people who have been so kind to me in these past couple months – but I’m off again. See you all again soon! Much love.