My academic program has little applicability by itself. I wish I had the foresight to do something different entirely. I wish I had the foresight that I have now and knew a little more of what I wanted to do like I know now. It’s too late now. I’ve now entered a period of existential crisis.
I really wish I just did what I wanted to, despite the fact it requires little skill. It would have opened doors to the administrative positions with job security that I want now.
Here’s the ultimate truth: I’ve never had my shit together. I can’t even figure out if I have a job the next week or not, nevermind figure out if I’ll have a job in four months. There is zero stability in my life and I’m scared as hell. It’s been this way for more than half a decade and I am worn out and bone-tired. BOOM.
Jack of all trades, master of none, though oftentimes better, than master of one.