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Two new words I learned.

Cronyism – partiality to long-standing friends, especially by appointing them to positions of authority, regardless of their qualifications. Hence, cronyism is contrary in practice and principle to meritocracy (Wikipedia)

Nepotism – the practice among those with power or influence of favoring relatives or friends, especially by giving them jobs.

I simultaneously hate and envy those people with those connections.

Most up-to-date news of my life.

Update: Dec 15.  Saw him again.  But he had a friend.  I had a friend.  I felt like I had no chance. I did nothing.  I’m hoping the fact he’s here means he’s here next semester..

In other news: This week has been fan-fucking-tastic.

  • Wednesday: I see a lovely friend from times gone by.  From 2 years ago.
  • Thursday: I see my TA at my workplace.  A TA for a course from nearly 2 years ago.  And he recognized me!  Both of us did double take first time.  Second when I was leaving the building, I finally asked him if his name was what I thought it was when I saw him staring back at me. Didn’t remember my name.. but oh well!
  • Thursday: I got an amazing surprise gift.

I was a royal [chicken of an] idiot – but in any case, today was PURE AWESOME. CLOUD 9 AWESOME, GUYS.

That awesome moment when the teacher is every bit as excited as you are to realize your favourite teacher from 15 years ago is her good friend.  It was obviously meant to be! She even asked for a picture to show my ex-teacher.

 Best. Day. EVER.

And here’s the less-than-impressive story of the idiot that I am:

Nov. 17 – I saw him and somehow summoned the courage to approach him and chat for a couple seconds before my courage failed me and I slinked back to my work table with some lame excuse.. but in my defense, I was working with another guy so I was trying to make it seem less.. flirty.

Nov 18 – I had a chat with my supervisor and saw him in the area but we were both busy so nothing happened there.

Here’s the part where i was a royal idiot – I saw him Dec 1.  I had a chance Dec.1. NO ONE was there, it was JUST US. AND it was the last day.. of classes so pretty much my last chance.   He even greeted me with a hi, how’s it going.  And I bailed.  I felt my cheeks heat up and my courage died when he talked.  and so he left after like 15 minutes.  I WAS LAME.  I’M SORRY WORLD. I COULDN’T EVEN LOOK UP TO MAKE SMALL TALK.  I DESERVE NOTHING.  BUT I’D LIKE TO ASK.. FOR.. ONE MORE PERFECT CHANCE TO CHANGE.  PRETTY GODDAMN PLEASE. PLEASE.

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