I feel like my life is unraveling around me. I want to cry but I can’t. Nothing has been going my way this year.
From believing there was a possible backup to suddenly realizing that your backup is entirely contingent on your current performance and knowing that it is very likely you cannot perform that well.. it’s like.. someone pulled the rug out from underneath my feet. I want to cry and breakdown but somehow I can’t even do that. Tears just won’t come to me.